Wednesday, August 24, 2011

can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars?

I could really use a wish right now...

I know, I know, it's been months since I last updated, but in my defense, it has been a rough summer.

Like this summer, I'll start with the bad and the ugly, so we can end on a good note.

A few days after our trip to the National Aquarium in Baltimore, I found out I was pregnant again. Two days later Daniel told me to take the baby and live with my parents in NY. A little over a month later he said he wanted a divorce because he wasn't in love with me anymore.

Then my daughter had her third (and FINAL!) surgery at Walter Reed. My mom and I thought it would be an overnight stay in the hospital, but it turned into a week long one since she wouldn't eat or drink, was dehydrated, and lost over a kilo (1 kilogram = 2.20462262 pounds) in 4 days.

Two and a half weeks after getting home from the hospital, I miscarried. Four days after that, my parents and I drove down to Maryland to get my belongings from Daniel's storage unit and give him his car back.

Hormones aside, since I'm not the one who fell out of love and wanted the divorce, it was very hard saying goodbye. When he was only four hours away, I still felt like there was a chance he would change his mind and we could fix things. Now that he's not even on the same continent, I'm starting to accept it and am doing what I can to take care of my baby girl.

I am very grateful to my family and friends for being so supportive. It means so much to me that my daughter and I have so many loving people here for us no matter what :)

We are having a party to celebrate both my daughter and my mom's birthdays. I can't believe she's turning one already! She's almost walking and no longer uses a pacifier or a bottle. She drinks from a cup and eats what we eat.. What happened to my baby?!

Does anyone know how to keep her this tiny forever? :)

1 comment:

  1. Nicole - so sorry to read about such a lousy summer! You are in my thoughts and prayers, girl.